The Corners of My Mind

The existence of forgetting has never been proved:  We only know that some things don't come to mind when we want them.  - Friedrich Nietzsche

My memory sucks. There is no other way to put it… it sucks. If I try to remember something and I look away for two seconds, the thought is gone. It has just vanished. At times, I may have a vague recollection that I may have forgotten something. But in general, I don’t even have that. So if there is no one there to remind me, it may be forgotten forever.

Lately, it seems worse. I’m not sure if it’s because I had the recent surgery and the anesthesia did something to my brain; or because of all the stress from the recent wrecks and just life in general; or because of the weather and my allergies; or even because I just don’t care. Whatever it is, it’s frustrating.

I think the most fearful thing is the fact that my grandfather had dementia and I think that I might be in the early stages. I consulted with Dr. Worldwideweb and realize that I don’t really meet the criteria for the early stages of dementia. However, I do think I might be in the early stages of the early stages.

Whatever the reason, I know that I need to work on my memory. I am going to better incorporate post-it notes and writing notes on my hand. I am going to email myself little reminders. I’m going to focus more. So if anyone has any thoughts on improving memory, please share.

Oh, and thank you God for the whole attached head thing. That was a good one.